Getting it all out before 09

Nobody reads this thing anyway so here is a list of things that I have to get off my chest before I begin my 09.

1. I really stopped messing with one of my exes...we'll call her Duck... cuz the sex was extremely sub-par and since I was no longer in love with her I felt like I didn't have to deal with it anymore. I mean come on. I should not have to fake it with a woman. RE-DAMN-DICULOUS.
2. My ex-girlfriend (another one) is engaged to be married and is moving out of state to be with the woman. I'm not jealous, I just think that after the hell I put her through she jumped on the first somebody that showed her some love. I've apologized for that and I've been forgiven so I accept it. What blows me, however, is that when we were dating she resembled Alicia Keys...and now she resembles Drew Carey.
3. I'm fucking this chick that I don't necessarily consider attractive but is great in bed. But I'm gonna stop fucking her now cuz she fixed me breakfast and called me "baby" one too many times. That doesn't make me wanna stay. It scares me.
4. I have a friend with some kind of muscular disorder. Because of it her hands and feet are deformed. All I wanna to is slap her and tell her that she doesn't have to try so hard, cuz I'd still be her friend even if she didn't offer kush on the regular. But I don't think u can undo something that has been done for years.
5. I think my mother's illness hurts me more than my own does and I don't think I'll ever be fully healed until I get far far away...so I'm planning my escape.
6. I don't have the heart to tell one of my best friends that as much as I love her we will never sleep together.
7. When I sleep with someone, I can tell when they're mind is somewhere else. I can also tell when they're heart is somewhere else.
   
8. I say shit I know will turn people on...but I've only sent less that decent photos to one person...okay two...okay three... yeah three, that's my final answer. lol. (only one guy though)
9. Sexuality isn't about "dick" or "pussy" to me. It's about love.
   
10. In the year 2008, I have only slept with one person I have some semblance of feelings for.
11. In the year 2008, I have tripled the notches on my proverbial belt.
12. Trying to wife (or be wifed by) all but one of those people would be as pointless as trying to buy a car from a bike shop. Nice people, I guess, just not what I want.
13. The "but one" is involved with someone else. I didn't ask. Didn't have to. Wanted to spare him the awkwardness of telling me.
    
14. That works for me very well because I couldn't attempt something with him anyway.
15. I wouldn't be able to attempt anything cuz I honestly believe what's for me is written and has been revealed to me.
16. I fell in love with a girl when I was 16 and never fell out.
    
17. Everybody knows. I "pretend" like it's a secret but it's not. It's evident. Painfully so. Sue me. :-)
18. I haven't told her about my sexcapades. Prolly never will. Cuz it's soooo irrelevant. Most of these hoes I'm fuckin with (I only say hoes cuz I don't feel like naming names individually) would become dust if she walked into the room.
    
19. I'll probably never ever call anyone if I'm having an episode. Cuz it's nobody's business, and I'll be looked at as nuts.
    
20. I'm gonna be famous on 2009! Mark my words...whether its from my book or my album or my sex tape, before January 1, 2010, I will be, at the very least, a ghetto superstar.
    

I'm done. That was totally self indulgent. lol who gives a damn?! Happy New Year snitches!