Out of My Body

This ain't me normally, but I'm hardcore pissed right now. So fuck it. Let it ride...


Poem Cry

Very rarely do I feel the need to step outside of myself/
go so hardbodied/
they could use me as material for bulletproof cars and/
I look up at stars/
and I think of my scars and/
I curse every one that aligned/
watched the moon arise/
and in doing so christened you a gemini/
Gemini,
I and my/
stubborn Taurus refuse to believe/
that you were intent on hurting me/
but it's one of me and two of you/
which means that at some point you had to/
have had a conversatoion and come to the fucked up conclusion/
that the transfusion/
which bonded you to me was an ellusion/
and rather than stop it before it started/
and leave my heart soft instead of hardened/
you battled internally
while outwardly loving me/
you said I made you happy/
but apparently/
soulmate ain't enough for a double human/
u need miracles and I ain't Jesus so I don't know how the fuck to do it/
I mean I can buy a coupla wheat slices/
fry some catfish/
but I doubt it'll magically multiply and be enough to feed the masses/
you showed yo ass its/
a shame that we right here/
when ten minutes before your new revelation we were right there/
kneeling together in humble admission/
that the love bug was alive and well and like Sarah Jessica Parker we'd been bitten/
smitten/
searching for nothing/
just loving/
like only we did/
when we did/
if we did/
cuz right now I'm seriously questioning it/
and what was the point of telling me you were coming back/
if it was to be followed by Palin like facts/
incorrect and unresearched/
now I hurt/
curse the seasons/
weezy like reasons/
fuck a summer cuz unlike Stevie I knew you'd leave/
fuck a spring cuz new growth means shit to me/
and you can keep your winter cuz it's colder than I thought and/
I'm not even gon sit here and entertain autumn/
which besides a breeze don't bring nothing at all/
but tears that will never ever ever ever fall/
I'm small/
in this universe but my spirit is colossal/
hopefully the next time I see you our bodies will be fossil/
ized and my eyes/
will lock onto yours and remain dry/
and there's no love lost cuz obviously there was never none around/
and if Love's bitch ass does darken my doorstep
I guarentee, she's goin' DOWN.